Copeland

Copeland is absolutely wonderful. They have a bunchhh of albums and all of them are really great. You can't dislike a single album, not a single song, not a single verse or word. I'm passionate about Copeland :) They make my day, everyday. This is a more recent album of theirs that I have been listening to a lot. I hope you love it as much as I do. Enjoy :)

You Are My Sunshine (2008)

Tracklist:
1. Should You Return
2. The Grey Man
3. Chin Up
4. Good Morning Fire Eater
5. To Be Happy Now
6. The Day I Lost My Voice
7. On The Safest Ledge
8. Not Allowed
9. Strange and Unprepared
10. What Do I Know?
11. Not So Tough Found Out
Beauty, Found Here

In love Love LOVE with this!

This is the music video for "Strawberry Swing" by Coldplay
Watch and be Amazed
Such a cool concept :)

Zach Braff

So delicious :)

The MOST IMPORTANT

I have posted a lot today but this is the most important one that I have to share. I did them in this order on purpose: the bad on the bottom and what I need to really keep in perspective is on top, where I will see it and remember it when times are tough.

I want to write about exactly what I want in a guy. I think that it is easy to forget what I need and deserve and then latch onto whatever comes my way. I am too good for such behavior so I want to write a little paragraph/run-on rant about exactly what I want and feel I deserve if I work hard and look long enough. Here goes nothin:

I want someone to love. I want someone who loves me for exactly who I am and what I represent as a woman and overall human being. I want to be able to wear no make up and not be looking my best, but still feel my best, just knowing that that person gives a damn about me no matter what I look like. I want someone who shares my same ideals and even on the things we dont agree on, is still open to discuss things and see my side sometimes. I want someone to hold my hand and sit next to me. I want someone who will kiss me even when people are around to see. I want someone who will make me smile and will let me make their day. I want someone to be a goof ball with. I want someone that I am comfortable enough to tell all my embarrassing stuff too. I want someone I like enough to let meet my family. I want someone to cook for and who will try my experiments. I want someone to play volleyball with, or at least pepper with. I want someone who tells jokes and will laugh at mine. I want someone who is open to loving God. I want someone who is giving and caring and open to sharing. I want someone who will tell me about every aspects of themselves, total intimacy..no secrets and no lies. I want someone who is innocent enough that I feel comfortable but still knows what I need physically. I want someone who wont fuck me over and wont hurt me. I want someone who forgives my imperfections and even loves me for them. I want someone who is in it for today, tomorrow and whatever else may lay ahead of us. I want someone who understands what Ive been through and wants to help me forget. I want someone to have deep, late night conversations with. I want someone who holds me whether I need it or not. I want someone who tells me Im pretty, even when though I probably will think they are full of crap. I want someone who I can love so truly and completely that sometimes its hurts. I want someone who makes good choices and is grounded. I want someone with a life game plan and isnt so spontaneous that they let things get out of control. I want someone who will take some control of the relationship but isnt overbearing. I want someone who I can trust. I just want someone who isnt like the last few guys Ive met.
I deserve someone like I just described.

I dont care about looks, money, possessions, anything like that. I really only care about who the person is, and that they are open to love. I just want someone who I can see myself with. Maybe not Mr. Right but someone who isnt just Mr. Right Now.

Pepperdine!!

Oh yeah, I went. I came and conquered that place. It was wonderful, minus the food :)
Met a lovely boy there :) It was gooooddd times. Just thought I'd throw that out there in case anyone was wondering! Im sad that it was the last year, but at least it ended extremely positively!
I miss and love you Pepperdine!!

Mood Music

In times of trouble, I always find it comforting to have music to listen to that is relaxing from one artist, where I never feel the need to change the song.
That is exactly what Florence + The Machine brings to the table. My friend recently brought her music to my attention and I have to say, its all really beautiful. I hope you like the whole album and you too never feel the need to skip a song :) Enjoy loves

Lungs (2009)

Tracklist:
1. Dog Days Are Over
2. Rabbit Heart (Raise it Up)
3. I'm Not Calling You A Liar
4. Howl
5. Kiss With A Fist
6. Girl With One Eye
7. Drumming Song
8. Between Two Lungs
9. Cosmic Love
10. My Boy Builds Coffins
11. Hurricane Drunk
12. Blinding
13. You Got The Love

Pure Bliss With One Click
password is: www.downloadbox.org
please let me know if this doesnt work!!

I really hope you love this as much as I do. So beautiful.

Rough Stuff

So, a few hours ago I signed on, ready to bang out some really angry blog entries. I planned to rant and rave, and just get everything that was bottled in my heart and mind OUT! I calmly took a step back, turned off my computer and instead I did the only thing there was to do, go to my room and cry.
I did the most logical thing I could think of. I laid on the ground, turned on "Let Go" by Frou Frou, put on my sleeping blind fold, and really let go. I cried for a few minutes, just thinking of everything that had been hurting and then I was okay.
From there I called my good friend Pierce and talked everything out with him. Somehow talking to him always makes things better. I can tell him anything and everything. Sexual, emotion..anything. Hes just there to listen and help, and I do the same for him. It was so comforting to hear a friendly voice and just know that someone was there, looking out.
I could not be more thankful. I just had to write that first before I told about what was really bringing me down. Just know before you read it, that I am okay now and everything is going to be alright. I am looking on things now and feeling better. So here goes:

The last few weeks, and I mean really few, like one or two.. I have liked this guy. It all started with him liking me really. I dont know what happened but somewhere along the way, I fell for him. In the last few days, he went from potentially perfect to utterly detestable. It just hurts so much to like someone but not even be able to figure out why. I like him but I shouldn't. I have just decided that I won't. I'm too good for the treatment he's giving me. I plan to just forget about everything that has happened and move on. I am strong and this will not keep me down.
That's all I have to say on the matter. It just feels good to write down, to have in front of me to see and reread to remind myself. I feel stronger even now as I write these words.

I feel stronger and more thankful now :)

Go Green Baby!

I've been reading this blog, Little Green Penguin, and it really makes me want to turn the 'ol life around and go greener. She makes it all sound so easy. I really should try to do better.
Its just so hard seeing as I live in a household where I am not in charge of what is bought at the grocery store. I will try my best to put in more input I guess.
I guess one major green change that I want to put forth is that I want a diva cup! They sound so awesome! When my tampon supply runs out I am definitely gonna try to grab one :)
Hopefully that will be a positive green change that I can make to my life :)

I want one.

Whatta Jerk

I really need to stop turning my back on blogging and the blogging community. Its been over 10 days. Everyday away has been slightly dramatic and hectic, but that is still a long time. I promise to do better, starting today!

So, I just heard of a book that I really really really want to look into reading! Its called Sleeping Naked is Green by Vanessa Farquharson, a Canadian author. It sounds sooo good. I am going to look into buying it or borrowing it from the library! Very exciting! I will post more about it when I know more. If anyone has read it, please let me know!!

Broke my Body

Currently, I feel so fucked up. I jammed my fingers, hurt my arm, my shin splints are killing me, my back is peeling, and my heart hurts a little. Im falling apart. Im 17 years old and my body is already crapping out on me.

Am I Missing Something Here?

I have realized that I absolutely no understanding of the important men in my life. The guys that I care about, are just a complete mystery to me and its really, really sad and disheartening.

Guy #1: He is able to do the most horrible things and feel no remorse. He can hurt me, himself, and anyone else around him and just not get that it isn't ok. I just dont understand how he can live that way. He doesnt seem to realize that his actions have ramifications and that they really do hurt everyone. I just dont get it. How can he act this way? What makes him think thats ok? AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?

Guy #2: I have put more into this guy than any other. He meant everything to me. Now, I dont think of him the way that I used to but I still feel like what he does plays a part in my life. I am currently single and he is not. It doesnt so much bother me that he is with someone again, especially since I have already been with a few people, but what does bother me is who he is with. She just seems like such a step below me. It seems like he is just settling and taking whatever he can get. For me, what we had was so great and my opinion of what we had was so high that now, when looking for someone its much harder and they have a lot more to live up to, so for him to be with the girl he is with now, just doesnt seem like he is thinking of what we had like I am. Does is not think it was as great as I do? Does he not think of me the way I think of him? I just dont get it, at all. AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?!

Guy #3: Truly the strangest and biggest mystery to me of the three. I have had on and off feelings for this one and honestly, he drives me a little crazy. He drives me crazy just because I feel like he doesnt know what he wants, and if he does want me he doesnt make it clear. He has told me he isnt interested but then we will be alone together and he will ask to kiss me or something. Why would he do that unless there is some interest? And then, when we do kiss... he doesnt talk to me the next day. What in the hell is that? I just dont understand how you can want someone for brief moments but not really at all. That is honestly what I think. I dont really think he wants me, or he just doesnt know what he wants. I am just so confused and I really dont understand him at all. AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?


I think I need to forget about all three. I think I should forget about guys in general. They only bring pain.