The MOST IMPORTANT

I have posted a lot today but this is the most important one that I have to share. I did them in this order on purpose: the bad on the bottom and what I need to really keep in perspective is on top, where I will see it and remember it when times are tough.

I want to write about exactly what I want in a guy. I think that it is easy to forget what I need and deserve and then latch onto whatever comes my way. I am too good for such behavior so I want to write a little paragraph/run-on rant about exactly what I want and feel I deserve if I work hard and look long enough. Here goes nothin:

I want someone to love. I want someone who loves me for exactly who I am and what I represent as a woman and overall human being. I want to be able to wear no make up and not be looking my best, but still feel my best, just knowing that that person gives a damn about me no matter what I look like. I want someone who shares my same ideals and even on the things we dont agree on, is still open to discuss things and see my side sometimes. I want someone to hold my hand and sit next to me. I want someone who will kiss me even when people are around to see. I want someone who will make me smile and will let me make their day. I want someone to be a goof ball with. I want someone that I am comfortable enough to tell all my embarrassing stuff too. I want someone I like enough to let meet my family. I want someone to cook for and who will try my experiments. I want someone to play volleyball with, or at least pepper with. I want someone who tells jokes and will laugh at mine. I want someone who is open to loving God. I want someone who is giving and caring and open to sharing. I want someone who will tell me about every aspects of themselves, total intimacy..no secrets and no lies. I want someone who is innocent enough that I feel comfortable but still knows what I need physically. I want someone who wont fuck me over and wont hurt me. I want someone who forgives my imperfections and even loves me for them. I want someone who is in it for today, tomorrow and whatever else may lay ahead of us. I want someone who understands what Ive been through and wants to help me forget. I want someone to have deep, late night conversations with. I want someone who holds me whether I need it or not. I want someone who tells me Im pretty, even when though I probably will think they are full of crap. I want someone who I can love so truly and completely that sometimes its hurts. I want someone who makes good choices and is grounded. I want someone with a life game plan and isnt so spontaneous that they let things get out of control. I want someone who will take some control of the relationship but isnt overbearing. I want someone who I can trust. I just want someone who isnt like the last few guys Ive met.
I deserve someone like I just described.

I dont care about looks, money, possessions, anything like that. I really only care about who the person is, and that they are open to love. I just want someone who I can see myself with. Maybe not Mr. Right but someone who isnt just Mr. Right Now.