Copeland

Copeland is absolutely wonderful. They have a bunchhh of albums and all of them are really great. You can't dislike a single album, not a single song, not a single verse or word. I'm passionate about Copeland :) They make my day, everyday. This is a more recent album of theirs that I have been listening to a lot. I hope you love it as much as I do. Enjoy :)

You Are My Sunshine (2008)

Tracklist:
1. Should You Return
2. The Grey Man
3. Chin Up
4. Good Morning Fire Eater
5. To Be Happy Now
6. The Day I Lost My Voice
7. On The Safest Ledge
8. Not Allowed
9. Strange and Unprepared
10. What Do I Know?
11. Not So Tough Found Out
Beauty, Found Here

In love Love LOVE with this!

This is the music video for "Strawberry Swing" by Coldplay
Watch and be Amazed
Such a cool concept :)

Zach Braff

So delicious :)

The MOST IMPORTANT

I have posted a lot today but this is the most important one that I have to share. I did them in this order on purpose: the bad on the bottom and what I need to really keep in perspective is on top, where I will see it and remember it when times are tough.

I want to write about exactly what I want in a guy. I think that it is easy to forget what I need and deserve and then latch onto whatever comes my way. I am too good for such behavior so I want to write a little paragraph/run-on rant about exactly what I want and feel I deserve if I work hard and look long enough. Here goes nothin:

I want someone to love. I want someone who loves me for exactly who I am and what I represent as a woman and overall human being. I want to be able to wear no make up and not be looking my best, but still feel my best, just knowing that that person gives a damn about me no matter what I look like. I want someone who shares my same ideals and even on the things we dont agree on, is still open to discuss things and see my side sometimes. I want someone to hold my hand and sit next to me. I want someone who will kiss me even when people are around to see. I want someone who will make me smile and will let me make their day. I want someone to be a goof ball with. I want someone that I am comfortable enough to tell all my embarrassing stuff too. I want someone I like enough to let meet my family. I want someone to cook for and who will try my experiments. I want someone to play volleyball with, or at least pepper with. I want someone who tells jokes and will laugh at mine. I want someone who is open to loving God. I want someone who is giving and caring and open to sharing. I want someone who will tell me about every aspects of themselves, total intimacy..no secrets and no lies. I want someone who is innocent enough that I feel comfortable but still knows what I need physically. I want someone who wont fuck me over and wont hurt me. I want someone who forgives my imperfections and even loves me for them. I want someone who is in it for today, tomorrow and whatever else may lay ahead of us. I want someone who understands what Ive been through and wants to help me forget. I want someone to have deep, late night conversations with. I want someone who holds me whether I need it or not. I want someone who tells me Im pretty, even when though I probably will think they are full of crap. I want someone who I can love so truly and completely that sometimes its hurts. I want someone who makes good choices and is grounded. I want someone with a life game plan and isnt so spontaneous that they let things get out of control. I want someone who will take some control of the relationship but isnt overbearing. I want someone who I can trust. I just want someone who isnt like the last few guys Ive met.
I deserve someone like I just described.

I dont care about looks, money, possessions, anything like that. I really only care about who the person is, and that they are open to love. I just want someone who I can see myself with. Maybe not Mr. Right but someone who isnt just Mr. Right Now.

Pepperdine!!

Oh yeah, I went. I came and conquered that place. It was wonderful, minus the food :)
Met a lovely boy there :) It was gooooddd times. Just thought I'd throw that out there in case anyone was wondering! Im sad that it was the last year, but at least it ended extremely positively!
I miss and love you Pepperdine!!

Mood Music

In times of trouble, I always find it comforting to have music to listen to that is relaxing from one artist, where I never feel the need to change the song.
That is exactly what Florence + The Machine brings to the table. My friend recently brought her music to my attention and I have to say, its all really beautiful. I hope you like the whole album and you too never feel the need to skip a song :) Enjoy loves

Lungs (2009)

Tracklist:
1. Dog Days Are Over
2. Rabbit Heart (Raise it Up)
3. I'm Not Calling You A Liar
4. Howl
5. Kiss With A Fist
6. Girl With One Eye
7. Drumming Song
8. Between Two Lungs
9. Cosmic Love
10. My Boy Builds Coffins
11. Hurricane Drunk
12. Blinding
13. You Got The Love

Pure Bliss With One Click
password is: www.downloadbox.org
please let me know if this doesnt work!!

I really hope you love this as much as I do. So beautiful.

Rough Stuff

So, a few hours ago I signed on, ready to bang out some really angry blog entries. I planned to rant and rave, and just get everything that was bottled in my heart and mind OUT! I calmly took a step back, turned off my computer and instead I did the only thing there was to do, go to my room and cry.
I did the most logical thing I could think of. I laid on the ground, turned on "Let Go" by Frou Frou, put on my sleeping blind fold, and really let go. I cried for a few minutes, just thinking of everything that had been hurting and then I was okay.
From there I called my good friend Pierce and talked everything out with him. Somehow talking to him always makes things better. I can tell him anything and everything. Sexual, emotion..anything. Hes just there to listen and help, and I do the same for him. It was so comforting to hear a friendly voice and just know that someone was there, looking out.
I could not be more thankful. I just had to write that first before I told about what was really bringing me down. Just know before you read it, that I am okay now and everything is going to be alright. I am looking on things now and feeling better. So here goes:

The last few weeks, and I mean really few, like one or two.. I have liked this guy. It all started with him liking me really. I dont know what happened but somewhere along the way, I fell for him. In the last few days, he went from potentially perfect to utterly detestable. It just hurts so much to like someone but not even be able to figure out why. I like him but I shouldn't. I have just decided that I won't. I'm too good for the treatment he's giving me. I plan to just forget about everything that has happened and move on. I am strong and this will not keep me down.
That's all I have to say on the matter. It just feels good to write down, to have in front of me to see and reread to remind myself. I feel stronger even now as I write these words.

I feel stronger and more thankful now :)

Go Green Baby!

I've been reading this blog, Little Green Penguin, and it really makes me want to turn the 'ol life around and go greener. She makes it all sound so easy. I really should try to do better.
Its just so hard seeing as I live in a household where I am not in charge of what is bought at the grocery store. I will try my best to put in more input I guess.
I guess one major green change that I want to put forth is that I want a diva cup! They sound so awesome! When my tampon supply runs out I am definitely gonna try to grab one :)
Hopefully that will be a positive green change that I can make to my life :)

I want one.

Whatta Jerk

I really need to stop turning my back on blogging and the blogging community. Its been over 10 days. Everyday away has been slightly dramatic and hectic, but that is still a long time. I promise to do better, starting today!

So, I just heard of a book that I really really really want to look into reading! Its called Sleeping Naked is Green by Vanessa Farquharson, a Canadian author. It sounds sooo good. I am going to look into buying it or borrowing it from the library! Very exciting! I will post more about it when I know more. If anyone has read it, please let me know!!

Broke my Body

Currently, I feel so fucked up. I jammed my fingers, hurt my arm, my shin splints are killing me, my back is peeling, and my heart hurts a little. Im falling apart. Im 17 years old and my body is already crapping out on me.

Am I Missing Something Here?

I have realized that I absolutely no understanding of the important men in my life. The guys that I care about, are just a complete mystery to me and its really, really sad and disheartening.

Guy #1: He is able to do the most horrible things and feel no remorse. He can hurt me, himself, and anyone else around him and just not get that it isn't ok. I just dont understand how he can live that way. He doesnt seem to realize that his actions have ramifications and that they really do hurt everyone. I just dont get it. How can he act this way? What makes him think thats ok? AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?

Guy #2: I have put more into this guy than any other. He meant everything to me. Now, I dont think of him the way that I used to but I still feel like what he does plays a part in my life. I am currently single and he is not. It doesnt so much bother me that he is with someone again, especially since I have already been with a few people, but what does bother me is who he is with. She just seems like such a step below me. It seems like he is just settling and taking whatever he can get. For me, what we had was so great and my opinion of what we had was so high that now, when looking for someone its much harder and they have a lot more to live up to, so for him to be with the girl he is with now, just doesnt seem like he is thinking of what we had like I am. Does is not think it was as great as I do? Does he not think of me the way I think of him? I just dont get it, at all. AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?!

Guy #3: Truly the strangest and biggest mystery to me of the three. I have had on and off feelings for this one and honestly, he drives me a little crazy. He drives me crazy just because I feel like he doesnt know what he wants, and if he does want me he doesnt make it clear. He has told me he isnt interested but then we will be alone together and he will ask to kiss me or something. Why would he do that unless there is some interest? And then, when we do kiss... he doesnt talk to me the next day. What in the hell is that? I just dont understand how you can want someone for brief moments but not really at all. That is honestly what I think. I dont really think he wants me, or he just doesnt know what he wants. I am just so confused and I really dont understand him at all. AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?


I think I need to forget about all three. I think I should forget about guys in general. They only bring pain.

Lets Just Stop

I have already made the decision in my own life to never grow old. I dont plan to ever get older than 17 :)
I guess the two little boys who live next door to me, who have been like brothers to me since the day they were born, have not chosen this same path. They are getting so big! I blinked for just a second and already Cristian is almost 10 and Giovanni is 7. Yesterday they were 5 and 3. I didnt tell them it was okay to get so big and stop being my itty-bitty babies. Life goes way too quickly.
This is a really old photo of them, from when they were about 6 and 4. I love these boys. Maybe if you pray with me that they dont get any older, it will happen. Lets keep our fingers, eyes, and toes crossed on that one :)

Giovanni (left) and Cristian (right)

The New Pornographers

So, apparently everyone knows about this band because they just played with Death Cab (who I LOVE!) and Tegan and Sara (who I also LOVE!). I did not know about them until today though when I watched their music video for "Challengers", which is brilliant. I just downloaded their latest album and I have to say, they are growing on me. "Challengers" is a really beautiful song. I hope you will download the album, watch the video, and just keep listening :) Enjoy loves

Challengers (2008)

Tracklist:
1. My Rights Versus Yours
2. All The Old Showstoppers
3. Challengers
4. Myriad Harbour
5. All The Things That Go To Make Heaven And Earth
6. Failsafe
7. Unguided
8. Entering White Cecilia
9. Go Places
10. Mutiny, I Promise You
11. Adventures In Solitude
12. The Spirit Of Giving
Download Love

This is Beauty.

In Fiction

Always a favorite. I dont know what I would do if I didnt have "Light the City Up" and "The Illusion" to listen to while I get ready to go out. They really help me get pumped. I love In Fiction. Every song is bliss :) I really hope you enjoy them

The Forecast (2008)

Tracklist:
1. Liar Liar
2. Such a Pretty Mess
3. The Pact
4. Light the City Up
5. Four Letter Failure
6. Rain Over the Fire
7. Part II: When the Cameras Off
8. Motor Running
9. The Illusion
10. Brookie May
11. 1945
12. Keeping Secrets!
Light the City Up with One Click

Safetysuit

I just downloaded this today and I love the whole album. Especially "Stay" and "Apology". They both have lyrics that feel so relevant to where Im at right now. Im just taking out all my sadness with song. Enjoy :)

Life Left To Go (2008)

Tracks:
1. Someone Like You
2. Apology
3. Find A Way
4. Stay
5. Something I Said
6. Anywhere But Here
7. Down
8. The Moment
9. Annie
10. What If
11. Gone Away
12. Life Left To Go
Take Away The Pain

"Stay" lyrics that I love:
Hoping for a moment that I turn around and you'll be coming after me
Cause all that I can say is that it's obvious, it's obvious you're all I see

"Apology" lyrics that I love:
Whoa Oh (4x) I wanna be with you
Whoa Oh (4x) I wanna see what you see, see what you see in me
Whoa Oh (3x) I want you to notice me cause I'm already lonely and I don't know what to do

Today

Today was kinda painful. Its so weird how sometimes just being in the presence of the person you like can really burn. It just hurts when you like them so much and seeing them, you just want to reach out and hold them but you know that you cant. I cant tell you what I would give to just hold his hand sometimes. Its even worse that hes so nice. If he was an asshole and never smiled at me or talked to me, things would be so much easier. I just want to cry right now.
I just want to be with him

Classy Snack :)

So, this is probably gonna sound totally disgusting to some, but I just wanted to throw out there something that I make on Superbowl Sunday and somtimes on the 4th of July.
Its a dip of sorts. It sounds weird, looks a little strange but it is completely delicious if you can get past the other two things :)
All it is is dorritos, cream cheese and salsa.
You take a block of cream cheese and put it on a plate, pour some salsa over the top of the block of cream cheese, lastly, scoop and eat the dip with cheesy flavored dorritos. Its good I promise :)
Try it and let me know what you think

I want to see this

I have seen the trailer for 500 Days of Summer a few times now. I have decided that I really wanna see it when it comes out this month. I will probably see it on a Thursday, when its cheaper, because Im good like that. I really cant wait :)

From what I can tell, the movie seems a bit backwards; a guy talking about true love being the most important thing and the girl being all anti-love, more pro-life. Umm, no. That's not really how life is 99 times out of 100. And if there really were guys like that, where in the hell do I find one? If there is a list, get me on that fucking list, asap.

Im also already sold on the music, Hall & Oats and The Smiths. A good combo indeed.
Can't wait. How many more days til July 17th? :)

Perfect Pt. 2

Also, in I Am The Messenger, the main character describes another character and he says, "Up close, Angie Carusso is beautiful and awkward."
This may not seem like much of a compliment, or an ideal statement, but when I read it, I got choked up. I want to be described as beautiful and awkward. I could never be described as perfect so awkward just sorta fits. I dont look perfect and I know that I can be a little strange.
Its been so long since I have felt beautiful, or been made to feel beautiful by another person. I miss that feeling, the feeling of being found so beautiful and complete in everything that you are just because you are you. I want that again. It's so hard to find.
I want to find an Ed Kennedy, who will see me like he sees Angie Carusso, beautiful and awkward.
I could not ask for more

Perfect.

I am reading this book called I Am The Messenger. I have read it before and it is really fantastic. It's moving and touching, thought provoking and simple. It brings everything to the table intellectually. I cant get enough of it. Anywho, I was reading it tonight and a certain passage stood out to me so clearly that I just had to make note of it here, it said:
"Why me?" I asked God.
God says nothing.
I laugh and the stars watch.
It's good to be alive.
Wow. I have never agreed with something more. I swear I have felt this exact same way before, totally powerless but not afraid. Sometimes you know things are out of wack and you wish things were different but at the end of the day, you're okay and you feel happy with what little you have. That's really what this passage reiterated to me. Im so glad I was able to see this again and let it refocus my life.

I Am The Messenger by Mark Zusak
Check it Out

Twisty Brings Me Smiles

I recalled this old video yesterday and watched it and I laughed, again. I thought I would post it so maybe you would laugh too :)

Probably the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard, pretty accurate though.

What Do You Do?

What do you do when your very best just isn't good enough for someone?
I'm pretty sure you beat yourself over the head,
fight back tears,
and try to live again.

Thats my plan of action.
And probably cook and clean.
Thats just what I do.

Actually, when Im the very saddest,
I take a shower and cry.
I currently dont feel the need to do that
so I must be ok :)

Shiit. Life is just one big load of crap
that you have to swallow everyday with a smile
Its sooo hard, but Im working on it

Guster

So, I have two songs by Guster on my Itunes. They are both off this album so I thought I would just throw the whole thing on here. Who knows, maybe the rest of it is genius too and you will like it as much as I like "Satellite" and "One Man Wrecking Machine".
They are both songs that I remember loving during some of the happiest times in my life. They seemed to brighten the rooms I was in, maybe they can do the same for you if your life needs a little sunshine :) Enjoy loves.

Ganging Up on the Sun 2006

Track List:
1. Lightning Rod
2. Satellite
3. Manifest Destiny
4. One Man Wrecking Machine
5. The Captain
6. The New Underground
7. Ruby Falls
8. C'mon
9. Empire State
10. Dear Valentine
11. The Beginning of the End
12. Hang On
Heaven is only a click away

Lyrics that Speak to Me

"By the time you've found your way,
You've gotta run right back to the start
Don't think you've lost
You've gotta run right back to the start
And when you finally think it's gone
You've gotta run right back to her arms"
-Copeland "The Grey Man"

"You know there will be days
When you're so tired
That you can't take another step
The night will have no stars
And you'll think you've gone as far
As you will ever get"
-The Weepies "Can't Go Back Now"

"From the inside out
You're so beautiful
I want to hold you in my hand
I do everything you want me to
I do everything you want me to do"
-Ben Kweller "Sundress"

"If these walls came crumbling down,
Fell so hard to make us lose our faith,
From what’s left you’d figure it out,
Still make lemonade taste like a sunny day,
Stay, beautiful baby,
I hope you stay American, baby
American baby"
- Dave Matthews Band "American Baby"

"So, stay a little while longer
If you run
You're not that much stronger
If you say, i've fallen for another
Then, our time has passed away"
- Eric James & The New Century "Trust"

"Again for false affection
Again break down inside
Love, save the empty
Love, save the empty and save me"
-Erin McCarley "Love, Save The Empty"

"So confused
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never met to be"
- Gabrielle "Out of Reach"

"See the world
Find an old fashioned girl
And when all's been said and done
It's the things that are given, not won
Are the things that you want"
-Gomez "See the World"

"You're my satellite
You're riding with me tonight
Passenger side, lighting the sky
Always the first star that I find
You're my satellite
Maybe you will always be
Just a little out of reach"
- Guster "Satellite"

I love these songs :)

Crazyyy Love Pt. 2

It doesn't bother me so much when someone doesn't like you back, it hurts more when you know that no one is going to like them like you could have. I don't hurt people, I take care of those I love, and Im there... in good times and bad.
I have met a lot of people who say they are these things and can do these things but when the going gets tough, they are just not there. I am not those people. I really will be there.
The guys I care about dont seem to see that, or they just dont care enough about me to care that I care about them. That hurts. I need to start caring less about people that arent capable of caring about me.

The Weepies

In times of need and trouble, I can always listen to The Weepies and feel uplifted. The lyrics are really good. I absolutely love this band. That is why I am posting multiple albums by them, because they are just THAT good and you cant live with just one. You need them ALL :) My only complaint with this band is that they dont have any shows for a long time it sounds like. If they ever have another though, I will be there. I dont care how far I have to travel :) How could you not love a husband and wife band with such cute sound? Its not possible. Enjoy loves :)

Hideaway 2008

Tracklist:
01.Can't Go Back Now
02.Orbiting
03.Hideaway
04.Wish I Could Forget
05.All Good Things
06.Little Bird
07.Antarctica
08.How You Survived The War
09.Not Dead Yet
10.Old Coyote
11.Just Blue
12.Lighting Candles
13.Takes So Long
14.All This Beauty
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Say I Am You 2006

Tracklist:
1. Take It from Me
2. Gotta Have You
3. World Spins Madly On
4. Citywide Rodeo
5. Riga Girls
6. Suicide Blonde
7. Painting By Chagall
8. Nobody Knows Me at All
9. Not Your Year
10. Living in Twilight
11. Stars
12. Love Doesn't Last Too Long
13. Slow Pony Home
Download

Happiness 2003

Tracklist:
1.Happiness
2.All that I want
3.Vegas, baby
4.Somebody loved
5.Jolene
6.Simple life
7.Dating a porn star
8.Keep it there
You wont regret downloading this

Every track, every note.. is bliss :)

Crazyyy Love

Right, so I've decided that liking people is just a load of crap, son. It doesn't matter how much you like someone, they still will probably not like you back. Lame. But its alright. I guess if someone doesnt like you, then they aren't right for you. That is so hard to say sometimes. Yiiikes.
It's just hard to try and find the right person, the right thing when you had something so perfect before to compare everything after to. I know it sounds stupid but I really did have something so perfect before, it just didn't work out. I didn't think I believed in true love or love at first sight until Evan.
I cant say that what we had was anything less than miraculous. When I saw him for the first time in the church.. I knew right then. He didn't even have to introduce himself, I was already his. It was a done deal. Luckily he felt the exact same thing.
Its like..our souls just knew. Does that sound SO stupid? Probably, but thats the only way I can describe it to you.
Sometimes I worry, will I never have that again? What if I gave up the best and most beautiful thing that has ever been in my life? What if I fucked up royally? God, I hope that life won't always feel this lonely. I find it so hard to look at anyone now. There is just no comparison.
For instance, I used to always try to tell Evan 5 things that I loved about him. When I was finished with the 5th one, I always begged him, "Can I have just one more? I know so many more." Those were the days. Now any guy I meet that I even come close to thinking about as being of any interest to me, I can never think of 5 things. Sometimes I cant even muster up 2!
Is that totally sad and pathetic? I think yes. Oy... I give up on men in general. They just leave too much to be desired. Celibacy.. it may be a harsh reality I need to face.

Joshua Radin

The man, is a genius. The songs in all caps are my personal favorites :)

Joshua Radin - Simple Times (2008)

Tracklist:
1. ONE OF THOSE DAYS
2. I'D RATHER BE WITH YOU
3. Sky
4. Friend Like You
5. BRAND NEW DAY
6. They Bring Me to You
7. Vegetable Car
8. Free of Me
9. You Got Growin Up to Do
10. We Are Okay
11. No Envy No Fear

Download

If You Could Not Rip Me Off, That Would Be Swell

Tomorrow, I am having a friend over to make sushi. I thought we would make some maki rolls and tempura some shrimp. On Monday I went to the HK Market in Glendale to investigate. I knew what I needed but I didn't want to buy it ahead of time since I want the shrimp to be really fresh tomorrow. I don't believe in frozen crustaceans.
Anywho, I was strolling down the eisles, just to see if there is anything I have been missing out on. There didn't appear to be anything but then, something caught my eye: Tempura Batter Box Mix. "Hmmmmmm..", I thought, "That is extremely strange,". It was strange because, ummmm.. isn't tempura batter mix just egg, flour and WATER? I mean, come on! Are they reallyyyyy trying to sell me a $3, 10 oz. box of flour? That's just not right. The rip off potential on this item is high, people. It would practically take you the whole box just to make one batch of batter anyway. Your own flour and egg are cheaper than the box of seemingly easier mix. Make your own, don't be fooled. Don't let The Man trick you.

Tempura Batter
1 cup flour
1 cup ice water
1 egg

Beat your egg in a bowl and add in ice water. Sift your flour and add it into your egg/water mixture. Mix but leave lumps. Then coat whatever you plan to coat in batter mix with flour first, then dip in batter. You're good to go.

Addiction: A True Story

So, Im not gonna lie, I have an addiction, a problem, if you will. I may need to consult a specialist. I am greatly, heavily, and completely addicted to Jasmine Pearl Tea from Trader Joes. Its orgasmic, better than crack, and truly delicious. I drink a cup or two a day and without that cup or two a day, I am just not myself. I get twitchy I TELL YOU! It's just that good. I seriously think you should try some. Hopefully, you would be able to do so without becoming so fully amerced like myself, but I highly doubt it :)

Jasmine Pearl Tea: Like sex, only way better

Holy Crap

I've been experimenting with my blog layout and stuff to do to this page and I haven't come across much yet that interests me but I gotta say, this is pretty cool.

Redickulous!!Redickulous!!Redickulous!!

Sick right?

"Artsy"

I went to dinner awhile back with two friends of mine and somehow we got on the topic of "artist types". One of them shuddered at the thought, but I personally love artist types. I love artsy people, people of substance and originality.
What I don't like are people who think they're artsy, when they really aren't. Its detestable, really. I mean, either you're artsy or you aren't. I think a lot of these people like the idea of being artsy but they don't really know how to be. They force it and then its just sad.

What would constitute an artsy faker? Lets see shall we:

People who have an Andy Warhol bag

People with brightly colored hair

People who claim to love art and artists but then only seem to be able to name artists like Picasso, Monet, Van Gogh, and O'Keefe

Most college art students

I could add more but I won't because I'm getting all flustered. Anyway, I really wish there were more genuine artsy people and not just "artsy" wannabes.

The Narrative

I wanna stay true to my word so here is The Narrative. Honestly, you can't live without this EP. Its magical. "Castling" and "Waiting Room" are beyond fantastic. You will wanna put them on repeat and listen over and over. They're mellow. I hope you like them :)

The Narrative - Just Say Yes EP (2008)

(Isn't the album cover cuuute?!)
Tracklist:
1. Castling
2. The Moment That It Stops
3. Eyes Closed
4. Libra
5. The Photographer's Daughter
6. Waiting Room

Download: http://www.mediafire.com/?4ihyiyzzk1y

This blog

This blog is moving in a new direction I think. It used to be all about just writing and keep my life in order but now, I want it for that but mostly, Im gonna use it to post music. Whatever Im listening to at the moment will start to make an appearance on here.

I plan to put up my favorite bands when I get some time. Including but not limited to:
- Bat For Lashes
- Joshua Radin
- Built to Spill
- A Love Like PI
- Coconut Records
- Metric
- Copeland
- The Narrative
- Death Cab
- Neutral Milk Hotel
- The Decemberists
- The Shins
- Flight of the Conchords
- Skillet
- The Format
- This Providence
- Goo Goo Dolls
- The Weepies

All my favorites. It will take forever but I'll get it done, little by little :)
Keep checking. Everything will be labeled DOWNLOAD in case you wanna skip all the writing and feelings and crap and skip right to the good stuff. Thanks

SANTOGOLD

I had forgotten how much I like Santogold. She just doesn't sound like anything else. Good Shit. Two-thumbs up. Enjoy :)

Santogold - 2008

Tracklist:
1. L.E.S. Artistes
2. You'll Find A Way
3. Shove It
4. Say Aha
5. CREATOR
6. My Superman
7. Lights Out
8. Starstruck
9. Unstoppable
10. I'm A Lady
11. Anne
12. You'll Find A Way (remix)

Download:http://www.mediafire.com/?g7icbmq1agt

Meg & Dia

At the Moment, I'm totally and hopelessly in love with Meg & Dia. Their lyrics are quirky and fun. I just love everything about them.

Here, here, and here

TRACK LISTINGS:

01 Going Away
02 Hug Me
03 What If
04 Are There Giants Too, In The Dance?
05 Inside My Head
06 Black Wedding
07 Bored of Your Love
08 One Sail
09 The Last Great Star In Hollywood
10 Agree to Disagree
11 Fighting for Nothing
12 Kiss You Goodnight
13 Here, Here and Here

http://rapidshare.com/files/224061882/Meg_And_Dia-Here_Here_And_Here-2009-MTD.rar

Stellastarr*

Thought you might enjoy :)

Stellastarr* - Civilived (2009)

1. Robot
2. Freak Out
3. Tokyo Sky
4. Numbers
5. Graffiti Eyes
6. Prom Zombie
7. Warchild
8. People
9. Move On
10. Sonja Cries

http://www.mediafire.com/?jzncozgvcw6

Who Allowed This?!

"Penny On A Traintrack" is a pretty great Ben Kweller song but this..this is not a music video. This should not have been allowed. I mean what the hell is this!? Please, you tell me. Ridick :)

Cheri

I was at the Laemmle Theatre last night and I went to see Cheri with my best friend. It was starring Michelle Pfeiffer and Kathy Bates.
I'm not gonna say it was the most horrible movie ever, but it was definitely lacking.
The story was about a woman who used to be a prostitute who falls in love with her co-workers son, who is about 20 years her junior. The whole thing is kind of raunchy and just plain awkward. Though, it was a period piece and I like them a lot, this one definitely wasn't up to usually high period piece standards. I would say this one is worth missing and you definitely shouldn't go see it in theatres. Its a rental and best.

Eisley

This is a really good album. I hope you like it. My favorites are "One Day I Slowly Floated Away" and "I Wasn't Prepared". ENJOY!

Room Noises

Track List:
1. Memories
2. Telescope Eyes
3. I Wasn't Prepared
4. Golly Sandra
5. Marvelous Things
6. Brightly Wound
7. Lost At Sea
8. My Lovely
9. Just Like We Do
10. Plenty of Paper
11. One Day I Slowly Floated Away
12. Trolley Wood
13. Lost At Sea

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=JFCZP9LD

Away We Go

A few days ago, I saw Away We Go in theaters and I have to say, it was really good. It made me laugh and cry. I definitely teared up towards the end. It was feel good but it also made me think. I loved it. I would definitely say it is worth a watch and a trip down to your local AMC.

Also, the music was fantastic. I got the soundtrack right away after seeing the movie. I thought you might enjoy it too.

1. All My Days - Alexi Murdoch
2. Blue Mind - Alexi Murdoch
3. What is Life - George Harrison
4. Song for You - Alexi Murdoch
5. Golden Brown - The Stranglers
6. Towards the Sun - Alexi Murdoch
7. Breathe - Alexi Murdoch
8. Wait - Alexi Murdoch
9. The Ragged Sea - Alexi Murdoch
10. Oh! Sweet Nuthin' - The Velvet Underground
11. Orange Sky - Alexi Murdoch
12. Crinan Wood - Alexi Murdoch

http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?rmmgutjakmm

He Didn't Know He Was Empty

Ok, so I plan to do a lot of blogging today since I have a few spare hours before I play a volleyball tournament tonight.
Here is a poem that I wrote the other morning when I couldn't fall asleep. Its about a guy I like. Kinda sad but it was exactly how I was feeling at the moment, about him and my situation with him. I hope you enjoy it.

He Didn't Know He Was Empty

There was a boy
in his perfect house of loveless joy.
He sat and stared, looking all around
he looked but there was no love to be found.
This he couldn’t see when he stared
he didn’t know he had reason to be scared,
He didn’t know he was empty.

He filled his heart and mind
with pills and drugs of every kind.
He thought he was happy with those things,
with the fleeting feeling each brings.
He closed his eyes to love and pretended,
with each puff and pill that his heart was mended.
He didn’t know he was empty.

One day he tried to love a girl he knew,
a girl with eyes of baby blue.
She wasn’t right, but neither was he,
he was empty and broken as could be.
He walked away to his empty home,
inside himself to stay alone.
He didn’t know he was alone,
but then again, He didn’t know he was empty.

Instead of love he reached for lust
sex and warmth, he took another puff.
In confusion he reached out his hand.
It would always be empty, he didn’t understand
Understand that he wanted the wrong thing
that he was trading love for a harmful fling.
He didn’t know love, and He didn’t know he was empty.

There was a girl who loved the boy,
the boy who’s eyes had never known joy.
She loved him despite the things he did lack
All she asked was that he loved her back.
He didn’t, he couldn’t, What did she expect?
How could he love her without first having respect-
for himself, for his body
He couldn’t love her; he didn’t love anybody.
He didn’t love himself; he didn’t know how
So she walked away with a tear in her eye and a quivering brow.
He felt no different, it was ever the same
by tomorrow he would forget her name.
He didn’t know...He didn’t know he was empty.

The boy sat and began to wonder
if his whole life had been a blunder,
but the thought was fleeting and he went back to his old ways
drinking and smoking all his days.
He took a drag to forget he was alone inside
To forget there was love in his heart he chose to hide.
He sat in his house, looking and staring
with people all around but none of them caring.
He was going no where; they all knew
but they let him sit, with nothing to do.
He sat and sat, forever unaware
that in his life no love was there.
It was empty and so was he, but the sad thing was,
He didn’t know he was empty.

OH MY

It has been far too long hasn't it.

I haven't been on here in almost a year. I should be ashamed of myself. A lot has happened since I was last on here. Once again, I have to thank Twisty Faster for getting me hooked on blogging. Hooked-on-blogging: almost as addicting as Hooked-on-phonics.

So, for starters, some things that are different:
-I am no longer with Evan.
-I am no longer a junior.
-I am not as happy as I used to be

Things that are the same:
-Its summer once again
-Still playing volleyball
-Still madly in love with food and cooking.

I have been writing a lot of poetry lately. I guess that is also new. I will try to post some work on here. I would also like to start posting more intimate details of my life. I will try to start doing that. I really want to start using this as a form of release and to improve my writing. I really need a place to write things down. I really think this is the place.

Thats all for now :)
-Cam