I have realized that I absolutely no understanding of the important men in my life. The guys that I care about, are just a complete mystery to me and its really, really sad and disheartening.
Guy #1: He is able to do the most horrible things and feel no remorse. He can hurt me, himself, and anyone else around him and just not get that it isn't ok. I just dont understand how he can live that way. He doesnt seem to realize that his actions have ramifications and that they really do hurt everyone. I just dont get it. How can he act this way? What makes him think thats ok? AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?
Guy #2: I have put more into this guy than any other. He meant everything to me. Now, I dont think of him the way that I used to but I still feel like what he does plays a part in my life. I am currently single and he is not. It doesnt so much bother me that he is with someone again, especially since I have already been with a few people, but what does bother me is who he is with. She just seems like such a step below me. It seems like he is just settling and taking whatever he can get. For me, what we had was so great and my opinion of what we had was so high that now, when looking for someone its much harder and they have a lot more to live up to, so for him to be with the girl he is with now, just doesnt seem like he is thinking of what we had like I am. Does is not think it was as great as I do? Does he not think of me the way I think of him? I just dont get it, at all. AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?!
Guy #3: Truly the strangest and biggest mystery to me of the three. I have had on and off feelings for this one and honestly, he drives me a little crazy. He drives me crazy just because I feel like he doesnt know what he wants, and if he does want me he doesnt make it clear. He has told me he isnt interested but then we will be alone together and he will ask to kiss me or something. Why would he do that unless there is some interest? And then, when we do kiss... he doesnt talk to me the next day. What in the hell is that? I just dont understand how you can want someone for brief moments but not really at all. That is honestly what I think. I dont really think he wants me, or he just doesnt know what he wants. I am just so confused and I really dont understand him at all. AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?
I think I need to forget about all three. I think I should forget about guys in general. They only bring pain.
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